It’s New Year’s Eve today and I thought I’d share some thoughts about the year of 2022 and the year that lies ahead. I’m wanting to reflect on the year that has passed in a softer way by asking myself kinder and more interesting questions than numbers and fractions on how I did and commit to new year’s resolutions in an effort to kind of force myself into doing better next year. No matter how I look at it I changed in a big way this year, becoming a mother. Going through the birth of my child changed me in a fundamental way that I could never have predicted or prepared for. I am happier now in who I am than I have ever been.

When I became a mother it forced me to start thinking in new ways that has proved to be very beneficial for me. Having a little baby comes with a certain amount of chaos and loss of control in your ability to just plan around yourself and what you feel inspired to or have the energy to do. All of a sudden every moment revolves around your baby and your baby’s schedule and your only option is to live moment by moment, accepting the chaos and to use every moment in the best way you can. It has helped me accept the limited time that I have, prioritise better and do the most important things instead of expecting myself to be able to do it all and this has been life changing for me. I still fall back into expecting myself to do way more than is possible in a day with a little baby, or without to be honest, but I have had to become better at living in the now, doing what’s most important in this moment and letting go of the rest. Because who knows if I have the time to get to all the things I want to do while they’re still relevant.

Having a baby is not in the least bit easy but at the same time the easiest and best thing I have ever done. And on that note I have some thoughts about the year of 2023 and how I want to spend it.

1. I want to play more piano. I know I won’t be able to do it every day and have a set time of when and how long I should practice but I want to play every chance I get and at the end of the year have spent more time by the piano than I ever have before.

2. I want to rest more. Giving myself the time to rest and take care of my emotions and needs when I am overwhelmed and too tired is something I want to get better at because honestly it’s something I’ve been horrible at. I’m starting to see that forcing myself to do things when I have nothing to give will get me nowhere although in the moment taking a break seems counterproductive. Taking care of my feelings and needs and then doing what needs to be done will get me so much further and it feels so much better. It’s all about feeling like you deserve to feel good and care more about that than just getting results and this is something I definitely need to work on and want to be better at in a year. This will take me being kinder to myself and show more understanding for myself like I would do for anyone else.

3. The third thing I want to focus on this year, or should I say we, since it’s my husband and I doing it together, is finishing the first round in renovating our bedroom. I will never be done when it comes to decorating and designing our house but I’ve decided to do one room one step at a time. So finishing our bedroom and starting to work on our bathroom, hallway and dining room will be the focus this year.

4. I want to blog more than I did in 2022 which hopefully won’t be too difficult since it’s something I barely did.

5. The fifth and final thing is that I want to document more of our everyday life and take more pictures of the less than perfect moments of our day to day life. 

With this I want to wish you all a happy new year. May all your dreams for this year come true and above all, may you enjoy your time dreaming.